You're alone here
A short walk, my biggest fear
In this slow watch,
The thin air, my ribs creek
Like wooden dining chairs
When you see me, always scared
And every situation ends the same
With your blank stare
Me in the top water circling the sink drain
Because it's heavy, I'm trying really hard
To keep my nose clean, ??? blew out of my arm
But it's not easy, it's not easy
When what you think of me
Is important and I know it shouldn't be
So damn important, but it is to me
And I'm only ever screaming at myself
In public, I know I shouldn't act this way in public
I know I shouldn't make my friends all worry
When I go out and I grind my teeth like sutures
My mind like a wound
When I stay up and throw my voice about you
Or less about you and more about how I ruin
Everything I think could be good news